about

1. name
   fe-[redacted]
2. age
   early 30s
3. pronouns
   they/them | he/him
4. ?
   ?

interests and stuff

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motivation for this site

the purpose of this website is a mystery even to me as of right now. if i had to formulate goals of this, i'd say it's:

• trying to formulate my thoughts about things (this most likely will be media, but also life stuff in general) as (in)coherently as i'm able to and maybe a little more long-form than on platforms like bsky where you restrict yourself to 1 or 3 280 character posts
• showing off creative endeavors of which i have none (i'm dabbling in learning some things, read further on, but nothing i'm really proud to present as a finished result or even as a WIP)
• getting away from social media platforms for doing these things. even the "good" platforms in terms of politics of the grander user base and the politics and policies of the platforms themselves are (and always have been, it just has been sinking in more and more) are not ideal places for self-expression. aside from the undeniable damage that many of these platforms have done to society at large, i think they also have done a lot of damage to myself, my attention span and my ability to formulate thoughts. "if it's not created and digestible within seconds and if it doesn't get attention in forms of likes within seconds or minutes, it's not a thought worth pursuing" is a line of thinking i've genuinely had and i hate it. so instead i'm trying out doing my self-expression in a radically different place, where there isn't even a direct way to get feedback and approval in the form of a button click. let's see how that works.

about the tech behind it

this site is built with eleventy and currently heavily based on the eleventy-base-blog template. it seemed like a good enough starting point to quickly get something blog-like going on that can work with just writing posts as markdown files. as a software engineer by trade who mostly works with fuck-ass-complex react frontends i wanted to purposefully not build something that needs javascript or state management or like 95% of the other things that modern websites have (and obviously, since the goal is to host this on neocities or something similar, everything should be built into static sites without a need for database or more than a webserver). at the same time, i want to write something maintainable that's well-organized, so eleventy with its pretty flexible templating features it is. unfortunately the bit of scripting currently going on is vanilla javascript. i tried to make eleventy work with typescript but spent several hours trying out different approaches and failed (hey, eleventy, having a js library that doesn't provide types in 2025 is honestly horrifying).

it might look a bit too clean and organized design-wise for some people building retro web 1.0 style websites, but i can live with that. maybe some blingees will make their way in here at some point.